You Put Your Whole Self In and You Shake It All About until you are a frantic, crazed mess who has nothing left to give.
That pretty much sums up teaching, doesn't it?
I mean...I think it has already been acknowledged that teachers struggle with just sitting still and relaxing. (So, for all of you out there who are all, "teachers have so much vacation time, how can they possible claim to be stressed out" - message. I think it's loud and clear enough.)
But I think another common sickness amongst us teacher folk is that we love to say yes, yes, yes and yes again until we have created a To Do List so long, so elaborate, so multi-faceted and complicated that it should really be donated to science for study. (If you don't believe me, see my own love/hate relationship with To Do Lists here, and here).
Friends, I have over-yessed myself.
More specifically, I have been asked to be a part of a team of writers who are working to create a (kick ass) literacy curriculum that is aligned to the Common Core State Standards. As teachers, we write curriculum all the time. But the moment you think about putting that curriculum into a book that people will read and use in their classroom, everything suddenly feels...um, how do I put this gently? Well, it feels like a monumental decision that I must make while standing in public with my pants down. That's about as gently as I can put it. (Sorry, mom.)
So that's where I've been. I've been writing. And writing. And writing some more. I'm out of the deep, dark hole that is questioning your own ability for the time being and thought I would say hi.